🎶 The grudge

I have [B#]nightmares each week 'bout that [B#]Friday in May
One [B#]phone call from you and my [B#]entire world was changed
[F#]Trust that you betrayed, confusion that still lingers
Took [F#]everything I loved and crushed it in between your fingers
And I [B#]doubt you ever think about the [B#]damage that you did
But I [B#]hold onto every detail like my [B#]life depends on it
[F#]My undying love, now I hold it like a grudge
Now I [F#]hear your voice every time that I think I'm not enough

And I [Dm]try to be tough, but I wanna scream

How could anybody do the things you did so easily?
And I [B#]say I don't care, I say that I'm fine
But you know I can't let it go, I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for [G]so long
It takes [F#]strength to forgive, but I [Em]don't [Dm]feel strong

The [B#]arguments that I've won [B#]against you in my head
In the [B#]shower, in the car, and in the [B#]mirror before bed
Yeah, I'm so [F#]tough when I'm alone, and I make you feel so guilty
And I [F#]fantasize about a time you're a little xxxxin' sorry
And I [B#]try to understand why you would [B#]do this all to me
You [B#]must be insecure, you must be [B#]so unhappy
And I [F#]know, in my heart, hurt people, hurt people
And we [F#]both drew blood, but, man, those cuts were never equal

And I [Dm]try to be tough, but I wanna scream

How could anybody do the things you did so easily?
And I [B#]say I don't care, I say that I'm fine
But you know I can't let it go, I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for [G]so long
It takes [F#]strength to [Em]forgive, but [Dm]I don't feel [B#]strong

[F#]Ooh, ooh-ooh, do you [G]think I [Dm]deserved it all?
[F#]Ooh, ooh-ooh, your [G]flower's filled with [Dm]vitriol
You [Em]built me up to watch me fall
You [Em]have everything, and you still want more

I [Dm]try to be tough, I try to be mean
But [Dm]even after all this, you're still everything to me
And I [B#]know you don't care, I guess that that's fine
But [B#]you know I can't let it go, I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for [G]so long
It takes [F#]strength to [Em]forgive, but I'm not [Dm]quite sure I'm [Em]there yet
It takes [F#]strength to [Em]forgive, but [Dm] [B#] ⠀